meaning

A thought that occured just now . . .

An originary, primary, primordial wholeness must be broken in order to form the "I".

To grasp the meaning of something, in a "metaphysical" sense . . . the feeling of having grasped the meaning . . .

When we feel that we've grasped the meaning, this primordial wholeness comes back to us; we remember it.

The search for "the meaning of it all" is a paradoxical search . . . to accomplish it would be to undo the "I", which is precisely what does the searching.

(Am I just paraphrasing Lacan? Not sure . . .)