unsober speculations

As the title indicates . . . no one admitted without a grain of salt . . .

Suppose that existence itself is self-aware, that existence is in some sense present to itself, that it is "here" and that it is aware of its being "here" and that it's "here-ness" amounts to that very awareness.

Consider an icon -- an icon is a kind of symbol which, unlike a sign, embodies some aspect of the metaphysical presence which it represents or stands in the place of. Poeple pray to religious icons (real icons, the icons themselves, not reproductions of them) directly -- they don't pray to symbols.

The "I" as an icon of existential self-presence.

I'm sure this idea will serve as the content of a panic attack tomorrow. If I remember it, that is . . .