whenever i try to write about theory

I feel like I'm dancing. Badly, I mean. I'm a terrible dancer, the kind whose consciousness appears poorly-distributed throughout his body. When I try to imitate a complex and graceful move, my limbs just flop about as though they've gone numb and I'm on some kind of bumpy amusement park ride. I feel my elbow collide with someone else's body part and jump back impulsively, as if I'd run into a lit cigarette, all the while attempting to apologize both under my breath and over the music -- only to feel my foot graze another dancer's ankle. And none of this happens in any relation to any beat whatsoever.

Be that as it may (and unlike dancing) I enjoy theory and actually believe that I will, with practice, improve.